When I say “please don’t take a picture of me” it’s not because I’m being bitchy and stubborn, it’s because if I see that picture I will seriously feel so bad about myself and think I am the ugliest thing on earth and sink a little deeper into self consciousness and hatred.
and before anyone says anything about selfies- those are controlled photos.
So…I think I got a date. Can I call it a date? The viking from the bar has found me on facebook and invited me to have coffee with him. Oh gosh I have never been on a real date, I’m so incredibly anxious
Men want us to kiss them with beards, suck their dicks and kiss their balls with pubes, hug them with hairy arm pits, intwine our legs with hairy thighs, but if women have one hair on our body that isn’t on our head it’s disgusting
Boys, not men. No decent man gives a flying fuck about these things.
Okay, so until ~yesterday everything was great - people are awesome, lessons are interesting, parties are fun (mostly, our first party was in this shitty night club, I’m never going back), etc. but yeah, you know how I was scared that I’d get sick here? well guess fucking what
I started coughing v bad, my chest hurts, i have a fever, thank god i have some meds, but I hope i have enough, god, i wouldn’t want to have to go to real proper doctor ugh
So yeah, today is the biggest party of the school year - the student association opening party or smth and the events have already started, now everybody’s outside drinking, playing games and shouting until the evening when they’ll go to the club and whatever and and I’m sick at home hugging a cup of tea.
I think it’s the sign from God that I party too much - last week we had 4 proper parties in 6 days, so I think I should stop for a bit, cause alcohol here is v expensive and I’m not that rich, neither do I have the health to do that so
I’m actually concerned for boys who complain about how different girls look without makeup. Like did you think eyeshadow permanently alters a girls eyelid? Are you frightened when people change clothes